back to ipoh.

humm..since saturday i back to ipoh from kampar again.duno why..i feel like wanna go back to company my grandmom..since she's always stay alone at home.
i can feel how bored she is..no on9..no shopping..no people company..
so...i make a decide that i wanna back to company her
but sometime when i bring ah bing along ,...she will worried about it..cause we stay in one room,-,-..
actually nothing happend..but ...also know 'lau ren jia' will worried and think wrong..
but anyway..i try to explain to her and company her go here go there.
since tomorrow have to back to school..
but feel very tired now
gonna sleep ..
zzz

result come out..

My result already come out,disappointed.
i really hate myself how come i can get suck result!
FUCK! 2B2C1D!!!!!
i put lots effort on marketing...i get C in this subject somemore!
CAN imagine~!
since i didt study well with my sociology,but i get in B~
now..really down...dunno what i still can talk about..speechless.....
feel wanna cry out,but i cant.if let people saw it, feel more embarrass...
cause of this i cry.if that funny??
since all my fren get very high marks...3.0..somethings.
but how about me???2.0!!!is that funny!what i for i study for!is that work?
how come?how come my result so poor?!
how to accept it?
even that is pass for me,but i really aim that i can get more good this semester.but....what i get ?

feel moody today..feel like a huge stone in my heart there..cant even move it.i cant put it down.cause im not satisfy my performance!!!!!!!!!hate hate hate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.whats wrong with me??
even i get 2.0 ..but i dun even feel happy!feel sad only..
i know im not suppose to think negatif,but..just let me sad for one day can?feel wanna cry out ,can i?
im not satisfy!
i hate myself !
I JUST WAN ALONE !
others i really no more desire to want it.

Happy birthday..

Very thankyou all my best friend celebrate with me in KIZUNA japanese restaurant..there are bing bing,denise ,hui lin,clement,my bro zi hao,zi mun my bro gf,ah g ,sun fatt and my mom and my lovely grandmom!..
love u all so much.
muasck..
so happy last night....
but this morning..i on my msn..my fren told my that my result already come out....i though i can get in gud result....
but....abit dissapointed...i get 2B 2C 1D@!!!!!
i tought my marketing will get in b..but.....kena roti canai!
aiz..
i though one subject will get an A!..but.....sorry..i cant do it..
i really hope i can get gud result..
i put lots effort..but my result....speechless
i always ask myself.what brain i have?how come??how come i study well,but my result still cant get in A~!....wats wrong with me?



aiz...

cny pangkor trip..saturday20feb

humm..so happy to go with all my best fren and somemore with my three jie mei .....go pangkor ...my lovely mummy..my lovely bro..and my lovely babe......so lovely.....thnks god...this is what i know...money cant even buy those things ...no once can buy it from me...

really.. Happy chinese new year..

yaya....my lovely chinese new year!!so happy...went out with vivian them...my ex classmates...somemore go hui lin house eat stembot.....then go dinner with my lovely parents.......a very gud year for me.....muasck...muasck...i love u all guys..may god bless u all..amen

Chinese New Year lo~

happy chinese new year!~!
humm...actually im worried my body shape..aiz..since i dunno y..after i gather with that k things then i be more fat...-.-
i think cause he always bring me go supper around 2-3am.-.-
aiz.
pity pity....other then that...i worried my foudation result..aiz..i hope i can get good result..aiz..aiz..aiz.....

tomorrow have to back to ipoh jor...guo my cny with my family..but friday i will back to kampar..hihi..cause wanna prepare to go pangkor one day trip with my best fren them...erm,.they are...denise yeoh,ling hui..huh lin..han yuan..zi hao..clement..me and my babe...wahhahaha..so happy..but got my mummy teman us also and mr kang..
hihi
syok syok syok..i hope i have a nice day every day.thats enough...

free free free~~~

Thanks god..i have a nice day ...
since today,i wake up at 11am.i felt boring actually ,cause im alone stay at home...denise and ah bing go to school.
so ..no choice.
but ...suddently...i think back im not alone at home.
i felt that god are leading me to do anthings.
i really can feel god with me very day.
it is graceful..
today.my parents come to kampar to find me..and i ask permission to go for pangkor trip with my church frens..other then that i ask for my dad car to go for that trip...
1stly..i can feel that my daddy not willing to let me drive his car.cause he need to use it.
i try to exchange my kancil to him..=.=...but ...normal sense..who will change with nissan with me leh?
aiduh!!!!!
but ..i know my daddy very sayang me de...hihi....at the end......i win!!!WAHHAHAHAHAH~~~~
so happy.
then today i very good in mood,so we go tescco and buy some ingrediant as prawn ,potato,carrot,onion,and blar blar blar.......cause i cook for denise and my babe..for thier dinner.

learn to Think mature..-.-

Since now i at kampar..this morning around 8am somethings back from ipoh..surpose yesterday already come back..cause wanna fetch that da xiao jie..denise yeoh..aiz..so we only back today.
Humm..since they all got class in weekend..only me.-.-...stay at home..keep my room...living room....wash cloths..cook..swept floor...and .....etc..
When im keeping ,i saw one set of english excercise...so plan to start doing it tomorrow.cause today wanna keep house mah..hihi.
Hope i can good in study,hope my english will improve.
since i know..if i come out to work..i cant get in 3.5gpa in my degree cert.
for sure that i will hard to find a jor.
even i know..now my standard cant get in 2.5 also...only can get 2.0..=.=
i hope i can improve lots...start from now..
even now im holiday..
but try to save my time to improve myself..

i know .this year already 19..is time for me to think for my future.
i dun like to let people look down on me.
i must have a good future for myself.

since last time my ex bet with me,we break up cause he at australia,i at ipoh.distance problems.
and yet..i remember what he said to me.
he dun think that i can come to australia one day cause my family cant support me..
but i told him..very sorry ..for sure i will go there one day!
i really dislike people look down on me.
i hate that kind of feel.
i know...now my parents cant support me..but not mean that i cant support myself in my future.
since that is the 1st time to let ppl insult me .or because the is more elder.

i dunno y ..all my ex are elder then me around 9 to 10 years.
although they are elders..but they dressing or styling like 25years old..
i admit that i like guys look mature.and stable..

NOW .....

my bf 21 only ..finally ..we good in relationship.
and...i gather with him happily thn my ex..i think cause of his behaviour and characteristic.
but ..anyway..i hope he is a christian.
around me ..my mom ...even my ah yi....they all regret that y didt pick a chirstian be thier husband..cause got god between us will more best in my life.
anyway...i will pass my future to my god...
cause i belive he will give me the best way..

no heart study.

since tomorrow sociology exam..=.=
aiz./.until now..only study few chapter only arrrr......
cant concentrate........ar.........helpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!

every day is gud day..cause we have god!!!!!!!!amen!

Try to learn start from now..not only education..not only manners..not only physical action..we have to learn to praise our god every day in every moment...
Even we are in bad situation,we have to pray,have to praise,have to wordship him..cause he love us first.and he is the one who love u eternity..no warranty..is comfirm to your life..
today i go for a cell group again,i learn how to praise god cause we want god's throne sit on beside us.we pray cause we are weak.

The most riches man not the billionair...is the one who willing to give ..god wont care how much asset u have in the world..but god will see how much you willing to give? am i right.?
This is a gud leasson to me,since last time i will always compare myself to other people.
but now i wake up!alert!since diffrent people how to compare in same situation?god create all people are special,no once look similar at you?how to compare?
we are not ant..not look as same as similar..but when we treat people.we can use same way ...in good condition.I pass my LIFE as clay...I HOPE god will mold me to be a gud vessal in his eyes.


ACTUALLY...

yesterday night,i quarral with ah bing
the reason we quarral cause one of roti canai..but we scold until non stop.
the main not the roti canai.is the human 'action'
now i only know..our happiness,sadness and lovelyness are given by human..people...
cause of this...my life will be more attractive

WE HAVE to always think positif even in a bad situation.
cause of this arguement..our relationship become more deeply..we know each other more clearly..

TELL secretly...after this argue..
i know how important i am ..to my partner..how precious..how value i am..for him.cant even leave without each other

this IS What i learn that even negatif situation will change to be possitive to other people.
but i know each other also responsible to this plight.

AT here...have to say sorry to my babe..
cause i have done wrong also.
sorry...for i angry you.
cause LOVE no complain ..no hate..no irritating.

i will pass my whole life to god handle all my study,my relationship..my parents.my frens...my lovely future....i belive all will be the best that god plan to my whole life.
in jesus name i pray..amen!