sluggish ..not saying tired.

In psychology course,i learn lots of social and personal attitude.
so when im tired...but not to mention "tired" this words.its only will bring u more "tired"
so better say im aware anytime any minutes,!even im stress...not going to mention that...cause if u dun think about it.u wont feel stress.but not mean to shut down your own emotion encode and decode
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so..have to balance myself,after i study this course..i really hope i have a personal psychologist doc to take care of me..at list i know what im going on in my mind..and i have a remind that im changing or wat.

cause everyone also got a chance to being crazy or mental sickness...even our behaviour or attitudes different with others..through our behaviour or our attitude we can know how sick that person is.i mean in mental thinking and judge people
honestly, i quite worried about my bro actually..everyone also know his very bad temper and easily to judge people and like to blame this and that...i know how hurt he is last time..thats why his attitude change as this way..
i really wish to talk to him ,but he will judge me when i try to persuade him..what i can do?
the only way is try to love him more..care him more..let him know that im a lovely sis..
really worried him...when i refresh back how others bully him during his secondary school..i feel so sorry to him that im not protect him..he dun even mention to me..trough his best fren then i only know he get bully during his secondary school.
sad u know..feel like someone killing me.somemore,he always judge me and ah bing.i know ah bing dislike his attitude..but wat i can do?he's my bro..and the only one.
anyway...i will try to protect him start from now.dun wish anyone can bully him.
even how bad he is ..but he's still my bro...


heavenly father,plz let him aware that around him..got love and caring..he quite scare to get hurt.thats why before he get hurt he will try to judge a ppl before deeply know about that person.
i really hope that i can change his attitude..

i love my bro very much.but hard to describe out.plz...pray for him...
somemore...i really hope my babe ah bing will go to church with me and join us,but i know he didt say no not mean he like.he dun wish to join,but im not forcing him.i just wish to let him know how worth our god...how faithfull he is...hope one day he will know.

heavenly father.i pray may holy spirit leave in my heart,im willing to put myself down,humble to u lord, i pass all my future,my family and my future husband..cause i belive u are a real god in my heart.and i can feel how worth u are.in jesus name i pray ,amen.