GOOD DINNER~

 Ello~~Today i cook~ 

prawns~vege~and ABC soup~.

yummy yummy~   

I like to eat what i cook~hihi....

but today bing bing too hungry and pity him to wait me back few hours and wait me cook than only got dinner~.

...........................................................

now nothing la~hihi..

gonna sleep.tired.good night~

For when i am weak,then i am strong

          In this morning,when i wake up,the 1st in my mind is my study,im worried.even i dream last night all about my study.my mind keep counting the date how many days i left.next week monday i have to sit for my final.

           i got one more assignment haven finish,that make me stress.cause i still need to spend my time to practice the sketch.and im thinking should i go to church coming this sunday.

This make me so confuse.everthing i said to myself.put god 1st,put god 1st.but at the end i cant do it.cause worries...stress make me not dare to go for sunday service.

       But last sunday i skip my sunday service.i stay at kampar.i dun dare to go back.i scare im not enough time for my study.but on that day......
.i have do nothing!i dunno why.i cant do anything.
the stress push me until i dun dare to sit on the chair to study.cause i feel that im cant finish all.

      But i said to myself this morning,i must attend for sunday service !.even mondayi have to sit for my exam.
God will help me.

seek him 1st.
he will teach me to arrange all my stuff.

        Today i do my devotion journal,god speak to me again~

       This versus i marked down myself last few months ago.

For when i am weak,then i am strong. 2corinthains12:10

       This versus,wake me up from confusing....i think back last few weeks,my time table so mess up.And i dun even plan well in my study scedule,but today,i seek for him,he gave me wisdom ,and i plan all my stuff well.and i do excel~thanks god~
Now i realize.when i most bad mood,most weak that time.
.the most that i have to praise our god more and more~seek for him
GOd will change our situation.no fraid.no worried.thanks god.
he bless us wisdom.

 FOR WHEN I AM WEAK,THEN I AM STRONG!REMEMBER THIS WORDS.

敬畏耶和华是智慧的开端，认识至圣者是聪明 proverbs9

TOH LI SHAN get birth!!is a girl~

         Congratulation~~~to my lovely friend li shan~she had born a small little cute girl~dunno the name yet~later gonna go to visit her ..

        This is my 1st time to buy babe cloths for babe~~thats really a good feeling when i choose the cloths for present~

Humm,.,~feel so good~..

         Oh ya!somemore wanna complaint at here~yesterday!!!!12am to 4am~!!!! NO ELECTRIC at kampar!whole building no light!!here got 5blocks!can u imagine how dark was it?around our building,all shop closed,lots of motors and cars drive out,is feel like 2012 end date~0,0,.my bf joke with me when we all the way drive to ipoh,he said,u imagine here-this whole city no once is alive,and all is zombie.-.-......swttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!..he continue...

    later when we back to our building,there got lots zombie come out and chase us as their food.=.=...really swt lo ok!
    but is look like real~~like no people stay at this town~cause no light at all...
    And u can see lots cars drive to ipoh~

OMG...1ST an hour i still can continue study with three candles on my table..but until 2am something..i tak boleh tahan!!!cause got lots mosquito!!!keep biting me~cant sleep also.

We have no choice~me and bing bing drive back to ipoh -OLD TOWN to take breakfast!-.-swt..actually we plan to go MC DONALD~BUT there is full!!!lots students came from kampar here.-.-
so ~we have no choice~

tHATS my 1st time to take breakfast~eat until i feel very sleepy~cause that time around 3am something.-.-....!

Humm..but anyway~when i wake up this morning,i feel like dream to go old town ~not realistic..LOL...even thats happend.,.....

phew~~~

Today bible study....

be a smart human~

Say to wisdom,'YOU ARE MY SISTER"

AND call understanding your KINSMAN~

be happy~

Angry will make people confuse and lost control.try to not do that.control..control

esther u have too.~be a good christian.stop saying cursing words

after i read my bible just now,i do one thing.

i pick up my hp,and send a msg to that person ,i appologize to hime that today im not good temper,and explaint to him why i will suggest that.

after i sent that msg.i know this is what god wants~this is what a christian have to do.

if people scare to admit his own mistake,sure the people wont improve in his/her life.

thanks god....change me again,mold my heart again.train me.

i wan to be different with others.

thanks god~

happy day~

LOL..IM SO full~~just finish my dinner at VEGAS sama dgn shu yi,sarah and ah bing.

wow.~the food is large ,but i choose to it lamp stick..erm...for me ..is ok lah~not super nice.but boleh lah~

haha

Today i learn two words from SARAH WONG..

1st is BELIAU~

2nd is faggot ~

LOL.....

THATS funny when she said this two words out..haha..

Since today is raining day,somemore we sat at outside the restaurant..wow..damn cold u know.

we all freezee~~it's shaking somemore.ahaha/but i enjoy that ~..

love u guys.

musacsk~

GOD SPEAK TO ME,IN THIS MORNING.

I feel so depress in this morning,i felt that i still got lots of stuff waiting me to complete.bUT...i didt have the heart to finish~

I dunno what to do,just sit infront of my pc,holding a cup of water,another hand holding my mouse to click in fb...-.- thats no point for me to do that actually,because i lazy to work my brain so just do as normal~

i can sit infront for one hour with doing nothing!

but thanks lord,wake me up through the GOOD TV CLIP from my ah yi JANET'S profile.god really change sammi's life and now she belive in christ.

after i watched the clip,suddenly,god tell me,"is time to read bible" praise me in the name of highest.

Actually every morning i will read bible and pray,but this few weeks i stop and read for one day,it's not every day~cause the time is close with final exam,some more is time for us to rush our assignment,

i still lots of stuff haven finish,cause im not excel on it,all in BM.

everyone also know that MY bm suck~

but today i read my bible,proverbs2:1-22

thnksgod,god wan me to cry for wisdom from god.CAUSE FOR THE LORD GIVES WISDOM,AND FROM HIS OUTH COME KNOWLEDGE AND UNDERSTANDING.

thnkyou jesus.

I feel the stress...

I haven finish my BM ASSIGNMENT.

I Haven start my part.

aiz..i poor in bm.how to write ???

somemore i just back from MORAL DISCUSSION..THATS REALLY...___________*****

just ignore it~

i wan sleep now...

night~

ESTHER PUT DOWN THE PASS PLEASE

june lingshuyitwo cutie friends ~

thats a great conversation ~
 ~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 awesome
 haha
 im in kampar
 woohooo
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 i still in kampar.
 dear...
 im moody now
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 why?
Chew Shu Yi says:
 wat happen to u esther
 juneling, i shuyi am jealous
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 i headache only
Chew Shu Yi says:
 
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 haha
 i slept at 730 in the morning 2day
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 wow
 y
Chew Shu Yi says:
 wait r, i am lookig at the pictures my fren took on her dslr at the hillsong concert
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 haha
 coz i was lepaking in mm and the westlake
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 so long time
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 =)
 esther u din go back meh
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 got
 i dunno when
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 awesome
 haha
 i din go back
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 y
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 coz dont wan lo
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 oh
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 u haven tell me why u moody
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 my ex added me in fb last few weeks.
 i deleted
 but.just now i go find his profile
 aizzz.
 emo
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 find his profile for what?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 i dunno.
 arrr
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 wait ar
 giv me a sec
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 k
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 den?
 now very sad?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 yup.
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 listen to hillsong and pray to god
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 k
Chew Shu Yi says:
 cn i say stg?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 yes
Chew Shu Yi says:
 esther, y do u feel the way u do abt ur ex?
 i'm going o say something obvious la
 but its true
 god loves you more thn ur ex
 its cliche but true you know
 he feel syou pain and your sadness now and even b4
 so yea, pray
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 amen
Chew Shu Yi says:
 juneling is right
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 thats really true
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 ya.
 i know dear.
Chew Shu Yi says:
 yea, and I do not faham why esther still has a hard time relying on him
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 but i really get very deeply hurt by him
 i cant put it down.
 i had try to forget him.
 we lost contact for two years ago
 but i dunno y suddenly he wanna add me back
 its make me very confuse.and duno what i wan u know.
Chew Shu Yi says:
 if u dun feel comfy thn delete la
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 i feel like,,......sometime my whole brain is thinking him .. rr
 i deleted
Chew Shu Yi says:
 by the way you r suffering, you should delete the request
 thn dun be sad
 its done
 god is with you all your days
 ok?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 thnkyou dear.
Chew Shu Yi says:
 he understands
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 u are right~
Chew Shu Yi says:
 cry to him ok?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 k
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 esther let go of yourself...u just need some rest and cool yourself down..you will rest well in the name of Jesus..rest in the lord.he leads you beside the still water...let go!!!
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 thnks dear..thnkyou so much..now i better.
Chew Shu Yi says:
 r u really feeling better or annoyed?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 but dear..keep prat for me.i dun wan suffer like last time
 i really better now.
 lol.
Chew Shu Yi says:
 i hv frends hu say tht they are better but in fact they r annoyed tht they think v dun understamd
 esther, you pray too ok?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 no.
 i understand.
 im a christian dear
Chew Shu Yi says:
 you r d one with the problem and you know how deep the pain is
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 i know god is speak with me by u guys .
Chew Shu Yi says:
 so leave all your worries to the lord
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 yea
 i wan jesus in my heart.not him.
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 i wanna ask u something??can u really sleep well??or u just keep thinking if him
Chew Shu Yi says:
 yea, i wanna know too
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 I can sleep well dear.
 no worry,now is really better,
 
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 u just need time..reallu
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 humm..so good  i have two best friend beside me always.thnks god
Chew Shu Yi says:
 and thank the both of you too
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 yea..but i will try not think about him.
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 the devil is disturbing u..
 really..
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 ya..u are right,
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 u just walk towards jesus and do not look back when the devil is calling you..focus on jesus..everything will be fine..
Chew Shu Yi says:
 No la nt so bad until the devil la
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 nothing is impossible in jesus name
Chew Shu Yi says:
 your fire for jesus is small
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 its the truth la
Chew Shu Yi says:
 so ur vulnerable to all the negative feeling tht u hv just experienced
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 yea~
 RIGHT!
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 jesus will love u forever and ever till me die and till we go 2 heaven he also will love us no matter what
Chew Shu Yi says:
 agree
 but he is waiting for us too
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 two cutie~
 yea
Chew Shu Yi says:
 esther, you know wat?
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 ya?
Chew Shu Yi says:
 next time u face anything like you faced just now, remember it is a challenge from god
 to rely on him
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 yea
 thnkyou dear.
 agree
 is a challenge
Chew Shu Yi says:
 maybe yes as juneling said, it cud be the job of the devil but god allows it because he trusts tht ur strong enuf
 and you will return to him and not be tempeted by the devil
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 yes
 amen
Chew Shu Yi says:
 thx juneling
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 im improving too actually
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 good
 lets improve together
 
 i belive god put us together also
Chew Shu Yi says:
 awesome!
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 
Chew Shu Yi says:
 i believe so too
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 we will be a good friends until we all married..still best friends
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 totally awesome
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 
Chew Shu Yi says:
 lol, if i get married la
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 shu yi will be the 1st!!!
 HOU YEH~
~J u N e l I n G~ says:
 haha
esther夏shinyi ♪♬   . says:
 shu yi~
 mana u>
 haa

HILL SONG CONFERENCE

Just back from ipoh,my eyes pain~dunno why.i think too tired.

Today got lots people,and we have to wait and quite up that only can on in.

Since i met  few indian guys,few guy .two girl.

beside me have a small door,they want to pull it and rush in.cause there was lots people.and everyone also hope can go in early.cause the conference had started.

but for me.as a christian,must have a christian attitude.

when they pull the door,i pull back and close it.

i know there's few of them staring at me or what.

but i dun care.

if they say anything.i will straight ask them,"are u christian?" 

i belive that god dun likes the way they do it and they want to rush in cause of the hillsong worship ~

DO U THINK GOD WILL ACCEPT???

christiannity,before u do anything,think twice,dun bring our god's name down~and we have a god's  attitude.not to push and do some silly thing.

a BIG CHANGES FROM GOD.

This few days,i gathering with my secondory school friends~i remember my friend told me one thing and they all also agree that.---"esther,u really not look like a christian at all lo~since christian so guai guai~but u see u are like "dai gai jie" at school~..hahaha"  thats really funny on that time. and i felt like normal and i dun  even care~so what...  

After we met  up on  friday and saturday ,they realise that i always spend time on church more  than them,so they take my  religion to make fun.seriously,i dun like,cause is not respect god,but i dunno what to said so.cause they all around 10 ++ and only me is a christian!what to do?but i got rejected what  they said .

On their to look on me,that im a weird people.and is so funnny~~

But i feel happy after i think back they do this on me.it's means that i really different with them.

when we chat that time, i realise that god really change me lots from them,my concept,my attitude,my mind~my thinking.the way i talk,.the way i do..is all different~~~and they also realise i had change.change to be more normal than last time.,

THNKS GOD~I LOVE U LORD~

WHAT EVER WE DO IS FOR UR GLORY~

                                                       below is all my secondary school friends~\

meaning of white roses

white

White roses represent innocence and purity and are traditionally associated with marriages and new beginnings. The white rose is also a symbol of honor and reverence, and white rose arrangements are often used as an expression of remembrance.

 i love white roses~how purity it is~

LOST CONTROL

After i have dinner with bing bing,when i on my fb,i saw one people add me.name--KELVIN HEW.

when i saw his name ,i had a feel to cried out.now i only realize that i cant accept what he done to me in my pass.

it's really hurt me,eventhough it's passed around 2years ago~but still got bad memory that i cant delete it in my mind.can i have a new memory hard to replace my old sim card?

i dunno why.i still cant control myself when i saw his name or his call.but forsure.i wont be a silly second time.

automatically i will think lots~why he add me?what purpose ?why still wan to contact me?or do he think that i will friend back with him?

god's say love people as how you love me.but sorry god,this person i really hard to accept him as my friend.i think we need time ,and...i really dun hope have any contact with him.since he had married,i dun want people doubt on us.sorry to said that but it's truth!

EVENthough he's very rich~very funny~very handsome..very lovely but sorry..now..u are nothing

u really hurt me very deeeply that you dunno.

and now im happy with my bf.please not to worse me second time.i dun wan to be useless and stupid girl as last time.no second time.as you said,we never meet up..what you can hurt me right?

but i tell you,because of you i try to kill myself and blame myself!i have to spent half year to heal my scar that you gave me.

i dun wan have any feeling towards you.even friend..no friend..

please.dun appear in my life anymore. i beg you.

MY BEST FRIEND KEELY BACK~!

ya..

keely just back from hong kong.

when she was reached KLIA is calling me~

im so happy to heard that dear~

MUACK MUSACK MUACK~

I HOPE NOW CAN GO HUG U~.....

HUMMM......

never mind.

we almost meet up~

                                                           li sien,esther (me) ,keely!11

A "GENTLE" MAN THAT I NEVER MET BEFORE!

Just finish discussion about Moral subject ~
Just print out the hard copy,people are so funny~and some really very make people frustrated.feel useless ,i mean the discussion.
we had discuss nothing!
is that call discussion!!!!!
is burning up my fire now.
some member late one hour!
hello!
u think we are your what?
feel sorry to said that i really dun like this kind of unresponsible people ~!

can be a useful man?
seriously,i never saw a boy lazy until this!
assignment never touch!
got three pages can use instate of 10++ pages that he done.
hou sam!
he's not gentle at aLl!some more very ham sap!!!!!
i will slap him to india from kampar here!
l!arrrr!!!!!!!!!
I NEED WATER NOW...!!!!..BURNing OUT NOW..